As I sat at the counter getting the little ones bedtime medicine syringes filled I got so frustrated thinking about the day, there’s nothing joyful about having to sit there and fill syringe after syringe or to make her take so much medicine everyday.

I felt a wave of envy wash over me quickly as I thought of others who had, you know, the healthy, perfect kids. And I began to think maybe I wasn’t a very good mother at all (something I struggle with often) and second guessing every decision we’ve ever made…..I do that too. As quickly as that resentment had filled me I glanced up to the counter bar and saw my notes from our pastor’s church sermon. I thought, “you aren’t be very courageous in your faith tonight”. So then I just started repeating 2 Corinthians 10:5 over to myself. Anyway as I thought about those words on my notes and about how Jochebed‘s faith saved Moses from Pharaoh, it reminded me again to “Wait”. It seems to be a theme for me this week. Jochebed had to leave that tiny little baby in a basket, wait, let go, and trust in her God. It’s a reminder to me that I need to just wait, let go, and trust. He is a God who hears. And my perspective changed when I thought “I GET to give her all these meds”, instead of, “I HAVE to give her all these meds”. I don’t like giving her a bunch of medicine but I GET to give her meds that improves her health and quality of life, and we’re very blessed to be able to do that, regardless of what an inconvenience I feel it is (b/c I’m a human being) or b/c who wants to feed their baby crud like that all day long!? I’m going to wait as long as it takes and even if He doesn’t heal her I’m still going to love Him and I’m still going to praise Him. And I’m just going to wait and trust that somehow He’s going to be glorified in all this mess eventually…
somehow.❤️

“Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.”    Romans 5:3-4  (ESV)

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